Today started out great! The kids and I took a walk and then came home for lunch and naps. And that's when it happened, I lost my temper while trying to get my daughter down for her nap. The day suddenly turned into a horrible one!
Not long after losing my temper I realized what I had done...I apologized to my two year old and then proceeded to put her down for her nap. I then sat down to recall what had just happened, why had I lost my temper so quickly? It was then that I was confronted by the Holy Spirit about my sin. It saddened me beyond words that I had sinned against my daughter who I love so much. Then I realized that it should sadden me even more because I had ultimately sinned against my God, and that is when I became heart broken. Why did I chose to sin? I wasn't showing my daughter Christ's grace, love and mercy but instead I had acted as an unbeliever. Then the tears came because that sin that I had just committed, my sin, was what hung Him on the cross. I asked my God for His forgiveness for sinning against him and my baby girl. But, I was struggling with moving on, I could not quit thinking of the hurt that I caused Him. How could I move on? His Word! So I looked up the greatest known verse that deals with anger, Eph. 4:26-27 "Be angry, and yet do not sin; do not let the sun go down on your anger, and do not give the devil an opportunity." I had given the devil opportunity because I had sinned in the midst of my anger. I also acted as a fool, "A fool always loses his temper, But a wise man holds it back." (Prov. 29:11) The angry, "An angry man stirs up strife, and a hot-tempered man abounds in transgression." (Prov. 29:22) The arrogant, "An arrogant man stirs up strife, But he who trusts in the Lord will prosper." (Prov. 28:25) And at this verse my day became an awesome day in which to praise God for!
How, when all of these verses show me what a sinful person I am, you ask? I praise God because I have trusted in the Lord and I know that I will prosper because He has given me the Holy Spirit, who convicts me each an every day of my sin. Praise God for I will not remain, quick-tempered, a fool, an angry man, hot-tempered man or an arrogant man. BUT as He continues to change me to be like His Son, I will become one who is, slow to anger, wise, gentle and loving. "He who is slow to anger has great understanding, but he who is quick-tempered exalts folly."(Prov. 14:29) "A hot-tempered man stirs up strife, But the slow to anger calms a dispute." (Prov. 15:18) "A gentle answer turns away wrath, but a harsh word stirs up anger." (Prov. 15:1) "Therefore be imitators of God, as beloved children; and walk in love, just as Christ also loved you and gave Himself up for us, an offering and a sacrifice to God as a fragrant aroma." Eph. 5:1-2 With His help, I pray that my kids will see the Love of Christ in me.
